stryfers

I haven't been giving my profile time for years. I've been totally busy with other stuff. Work, family and other affairs. It's been tough and I've lost a lot of time without practicing my craft.

Right now, I've given it some time and I love doing traditional arts. It's what I've always loved since the start. I discovered the joy of digital art a decade ago (it's that long already damn) and now my love with traditional art returned.

The only problem is the limited supply which tend to get very pricy. Lol

Anyway, I'd be putting some fanarts and stuff these couple of days so watch out.

    Well, there's always a time in your life that makes you experience something that will change you way of thinking and doing. A while back in January 15 2014, as a nurse, I was one of the Medical Team that helped victims in Typhoon Haiyan in Tacloban city, Leyte, Philippines. One patient who suffered from a seizure attack was brought to a nearby hospital. I was the one who was with him inside the ambulance. While I was supporting the patient, the ambulance suddenly turned to the left and I was out balanced in an instant then I was thrown to the side of the stretcher. But the problem was when I fell, I tried to catch my whole body with my left hand instinctively but my little finger was way off and it snapped to the side like a letter L. Nervous, I tried to snap it back into place and I felt the crunchy feeling and I knew shit just happened. My finger was fractured. It was minor but the problem is that I am left handed. And after a couple of minutes, the pain starts to get stronger and my finger is swollen like a hotdog. I can't move it, I won't.

    Now a cast put it in place, and I expect to not be able to draw anything, let alone write something. But I am practicing with my right hand and i think I'm starting to feel it. I wonder if I become ambidextrous after this. hehehehe......

So for now, no drawings for me T_T
Hoping to recover sooner than later.

After almost 2 years, I am back to coloring my works. I managed to buy my very own pen tablet. And the cool part of the drawing begins. I managed to color 2 of my drawings as of now but I am planning to do more with it since I still need a lot of experience so I may able to make better and awesome works and someday get a new job on arts and coloring. hehehe.

So for now, I am still doing things slow and bit by bit I am learning the cogs and wheels of this new gadget. Needs more adjustments and for some reason I am able to do it a lot easier than before. I guess the experience is finally paying off.

i was browsing the net in one of the local internet shops. i was editing one of my drawings and tried to color it using a mouse. then, this dude suddenly approached me. He asked me if I was the one who drew the sketch I was coloring, and if I was knowledgeable in photoshop. I told him I was but not that much and I did know how to draw. He asked me if I am interested to draw caricatures for him as freelance. Even go as far as letting me burrow one of his pen tablet. It was just unbelievable! I told him I am interested too. I got his contact number and I am planning to visit his office this week. Problem is, my daily duty is 12 hours long and when I'm finished, its already night. Well, I guess I still have to try. Tablet here I come!

Its about a girl. Really....just a typical story for other regular dudes out there.

So I met a girl, she was cute and really friendly. Not surprising that there's a lot of guys that are into her. Including my one of my friend. I did had a crush on her but I let my friend try to court her. Too bad for him though she dump him flat. So now she's free again. This time, we became friends. Not that close but at least friends. I asked her out one time and she agreed. We had fun that day. And it was the start when I develop romantic feelings towards her. I try to hide it since I'm afraid she'd ditch me if she knew. We did became close, and some of my coworkers and friends of mine also of hers starts to suspect we had something going on and thought I was courting her too. Some of them even implored me to go for her before other guys get her. It was a pressure and a conflict for me. I knew I wanna do it but there seems to be not enough time. Then one day I planned to confess. After weeks of holding it in, I did confess one night. I closed my eyes and told her everything I truly feel. She said NO.......T_T she wants us to be friends. It was tragic. It felt like I am gonna have a heart attack or something, I felt weak and dizzy. I felt my heart pound like a freakin' drum.

After that, I didn't text or called her phone for a week. I wanna think and I do need time. I cried like a bitch that night, and I really felt like I have nothing special in case of looking for a girlfriend. This time, she hasn't talk to me much and not text me anymore. Although we met sometimes and had a short chat. That's it. I really want to move on, but some of me wants to try to go at her again. I really don't know what to do exactly right now. I just felt its a real waste not to go for her again since looking for a new one takes a lot of time and it feels like restarting from scratch which is a pain in the ass.

As of today, I am still in the process of picking my broken heart together. Some of my friends are kinda surprised it ended like that. They really thought we had something, but it was just a "friend zone" moment all along. I guess it was my fault too since my approach was not what it should be if I want her to reciprocate my feelings. Stupid.....stupid....stupid.... T_T